Wednesday, April 18, 2012

the {joys} of unemployment.

In the past 3 weeks I have:

*Spent one of those weeks on Roatan, Honduras. Enough said.
*Not dried my hair or used any type of curling iron. If I was more accurate, I just haven't fixed my hair at all. 
*Not had on any mascara
*Slept in on an (almost) daily basis
* Watched too much GAC/CMT (don't judge).
*successfully read 4 books

Don't get me wrong, I love what I do. But I will admit it's kinda nice to have nowhere to be, no one to impress. However, I start my new job May 1 and I couldn't be more excited! Wonder if they'll care if my hair never gets fixed and I go sans make up. :)


Saturday, April 14, 2012

apology and a tender heart.

Tonight I opened my email to see that I had received MULTIPLE comments on a previous post. I thought this was odd since I really don't have that many followers. Then I looked to see what they were about. On a previous post (like almost a year ago), I used a print that I got off of pinterest. Apparently these people knew the artist and were very upset that I had used this without permission. I have to be honest, I didn't think anything of it. Especially since it was all over pinterest being used all sorts of ways, and because I was not intending on doing anything with it except putting it in my own home. I clearly stated that I got it off of pinterest, never claimed to have made the print myself. Never intending to sell it or use it in any other way. I think anyone who actually knows me would know that I meant no harm. 
Needless to say, I have a tender heart, and was really quite upset by all these very nasty things that were said about me. I was criticized in more ways that I thought was possible, from my very character and morals, down to my ability to be creative or make any kind of art. I just wasn't really prepared for that.
I will apologize for using something without permission, although it never even crossed my mind that that's what I was doing.  I just wish people would think about what they are saying to someone that don't even know. I know my intentions were not harmful in any way. I am not really one to speak out about anything, and I hate confrontation, but I felt like for anyone else who had looked at that post, I should apologize since clearly this was a source of much concern for others. I have removed the post. I do feel this was a very  extreme way to handle this situation, and wish it had been handled much differently. However, to anyone I offended, I am sorry.

Monday, April 2, 2012

back in roatan.

So, I'm back in Roatan, Honduras. I've been here for about 4 days. My friend asked me if I was going to blog, and to be honest I hadn't thought about it until she brought it up! But.. I guess I should. I am always glad that I'm able to go back and read all the things I forgot somewhere down the road.

Recap of the last 4 days: 
Thursday: arrived on the island.
Friday: clinic all day, then went to West End for a going away dinner for one of the volunteers at Rotisserie
Saturday: rode in the back of a truck for about 2 hours (1 hr on paved road, and about the same on a dirt road) to a beach house. I wish I could tell you who it belonged to, but I'm not sure any of us actually knew! :) That's kind of Roatan for you.. anyway it was obviously someone with money. It was an amazing house on what was quite literally a private beach. Gorgeous. I lathered on the SPF, but it did me no good. I am currently friend. Aloe and cold towels have been my best friends the last couple days. 
Sunday: went to church at Rchurch on the island, and then spent the day at West Bay.
Today: clinic all day. And one of my favorite parts of the trip so far. I saw a patient today who came in for a med refill but I found out she really needed so much more. She was a widow. Her children live in the states. Her husband was killed by Honduran police over a car. He bought a car in the states and when he got it back here, they took it from him. He fought ot have his car back, even getting the embassy involved. Long story short, this eventually led to the police killing him. This has been several years ago, but she is still so shaken up by it she cannot sleep. I got the opportunity to pray with her. She told me that God has been her strength and without her faith she would not have survived this tragedy. She went on to tell me that the government here is so corrupt and there is really no "law." She was so precious, and has such a wonderful heart. If  you think about her, will you please pray for her? That she would have peace and God would give her strength to support herself. And that he would also give her rest.